We’re entering a new decade! Which feels so weird and cool to say at the same time. I don’t remember entering the last decade in 2010, but I do remember entering 2019 with a sigh of relief 2018 had come to an end. I did value that year and everything I’d learned from the experiences I had. But it felt like the end of a stressful year and that was just what I needed.
2019 went very differently for me. I felt like I could take control of my life and change things for the better. This year I loved studying, the road ahead school-wise. And I watched a loooott of movies. Of course there is always the fear of ‘getting a job’ or the question ‘what I will be able to do after I graduate’, but I like what I’m doing now. I’ll see what opportunities come on my path in two years.
I got a taste of what love might feel like. And it unfortunately disappeared quickly, by forces I couldn’t control.
I made the trip of a lifetime. Went to Malaysia with my family and good friends of ours, which I look back on with so much joy and wonder filled memories. Even now I get reminded of the things we did and saw and get a big smile on my face.
I turned twenty years old and was surprised by my friends, whom I now see even more than last year. (Which I looove & brings so much more laughter in my life)
I got a new job at a theatre at the end of this year. It’s still all so new, but I’m so glad I made that step. I also (finally) got my driver’s license after taking the exam 4 times. And it feels like such a relief.
For 2020 I wish lots more trips and wonderful moments. With or without my family. Since I will be studying abroad next school year, being away from my family will happen more often. I hope I’ll be able to find peace with that and grow in the ability to take care of myself. I hope I’ll be able to be at peace with the doubts and fears I sometimes feel when people expect something from me. And I expect too much of myself. I hope I fail and make mistakes. That will be my resolution for 2020: make mistakes. Lots of ’em. Learn to fix the problems, but also know that it is okay when something feels uncomfortable. Not everything has to be perfect. Really.